My Life as A Missionary

I have actually just come to terms with the concept of referring to myself as a missionary. I always viewed the term "missionary" as a pretty lofty title reserved for those journeying through the jungles, desserts, or desolate violence infested lands with solely their Bible and a huge burden to share the love of Jesus Christ. 

However, the definition of a missionary is simple - it is a person who is sent on a mission. 

I am reminded of my mission every single day when I wake up and walk into my classroom. I love my kids.  I love them intensely, I love them unconditionally, and I teach them to love each other. I pray for them and I pray with them.  There's no way you could tell me they weren't my own. 

 When I am not in the classroom, I am somewhere pouring into marriages. I'd say my marriage ministry is pretty strong for a single person.  I have personally declared WAR on the spirits of lust and infidelity.  I am made it one of my missions to support and edify marriages because I believe that God created marriage to allow us to see even deeper into His heart. 

How dare Satan try to destroy such a powerful tool!

On the weekends, I create safe spaces for young ladies to pour their hearts out to each other and to Christ. I shower them with love, prayer, advice, affirmation, encouragement, laughter, smiles, and hugs, lots and lots of hugs.     

So even though I am not in the jungle or building up communities in war torn cities... 

I am watching God build up the next generation of world changers and uplift a spiritually torn community through a group of seriously empowered young ladies. I can see revival starting to bud all around me in families and marriages.

Although my dream is to become a more full time missionary in desolate communities around the world. I will never despise humble beginnings, the process of refinement, or the Will of God. I am simply a free, submitted vessel running wherever the Lord tells me to go. I may not know much about the direction I will go in, but I will always have a clear mission - to spread the love of Christ; therefore, I will forever be a missionary. 

Love, Kamilah

"Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” Matthew 28:18-20

Be Fruity

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,  gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law." Galatians 5:22-23

My new year resolution for 2012 was to focus on the fruits of the Spirit. I felt like that is what the Lord told me to do. Unfortunately, like many resolutions, I came up with a beautiful plan that failed horribly. I didn't even remember that resolution until the end of the year - I tried to jump on the band wagon really quickly so I could mark it off for 2012, but when I started praying about what I should focus on in 2013 & the Lord pressed my heart with the exact same thing.  I was disappointed because I felt like the Lord must have been like, "Kamilah, you didn't do what you were supposed to do, so let's try this again."

Half way through 2013 I realized I had done the same thing. Forgot to focus on the one goal the Lord really gave me for the year. So I came up with a plan to make sure that I am fruity EVERY single day. 

I created a posted note reminder on my mirror in front of my bed. It has my daily chores, the fruits I am intentionally focusing on and praying for that day, as well as other prayer foci. I also get fruit reminders throughout the day on my phone (which I pre-programmed :P) . I try to meditate on them during the day.  
 
The Fruits of the Spirit:

• Love
• Peace
• Joy
• Patience
• Kindness
• Goodness
• Faithfulness
• Self-Control
• Gentleness

2013 is almost over and I want to be disciplined, I don't want the Lord to have to tell me again for 2014...focus on those fruits girl. I know I will never have "arrived" and reach my fruitiness capacity, but I want to become fruitier and fruitier every single day of my life.

Does the Lord wake you up at 3 AM?

P R A Y E R

I was telling a friend of mine how I had trouble sleeping through the night. He asked me what time I woke up. I said, I had no idea...I never paid that much attention, I just knew it was too early for me to wake up so I'd go get some water and try to go back to sleep. 

He asked me if I had heard of 3AM prayer. Of course I had no idea. He wasn't really sure, but he said there were a lot of strong Christians he knew that said the Lord woke them up around 3AM and that they would press in and pray at those times. I said, "hmm interesting" and continued throughout my day not thinking too much of it.

That night, I woke up again. This time I checked my alarm clock. It was 3AM. I was tired, but I made myself stay up (which was very heard) and press in.  Before I knew it, it was 4:30AM. I didn't even want to go back to sleep or get out of that place. 

Later in the day, I found out that earlier that morning my sister almost fell victim to a fatal shooting.  I don't know if the Lord woke me up at the time to pray for her or another situation - but I can tell you there is something special about that time. 

I did a little research after that day, and it was confirmed several people have written about 3AM prayer, how 3AM is the healing hour, how it is the inverse hour of which Jesus died, and one of the most important times to pray. 

Since then the Lord has woke me up on several occasions. Most of the time, I have no idea what I am supposed to be praying for. But I pray that my words will go forth and do what they are supposed to do and be edifying to the world around me. 

So, if/when the Lord wakes you up, be sure to press in. It will probably be one of the most refreshing times of prayer you've had in a while. 

I am definitely going to pray about doing it more consistently.